A job seems like a marriage to me now. Most people do it because they're supposed to, although there's a pretty high chance they'll end up disappointed and crushed.

It's time to admit this. From this perspective it's like I really have no other way, but to succeed in entrepreneurship, because I just can't handle the job. Job bores me to death. I've tried applying for some programming positions recently (I have the job here, but I wanted to move to US), and then I realized I can't do it. In some cases, I fairly didn't have the skill level, but in some of the other cases I could get the job. Just didn't want to.

Like I said nothing excites me. Nor technical problems neither a project itself unless it's my idea and my project and my business. It might seem pathetic, but let me explain first. When the brain is not excited it cannot learn effectively. For those of you saying “a job will give you a great opportunity to learn new difficult things” - no, it won't. Consider it an abnormal mental condition. For me the real reason is that jobs don't scale. Whatever you do on your job, it will never bring you 4x or 8x or more money. Switching jobs might help, but I guess you will agree there's a limit. For most people it's okay and I envy them (to some extent), because they can get pretty far with that – nice cars, maybe a nice house one day. And it's not that I am a greedy bastard, because I want more money. I can actually make a living on a regular Ruby programmer's salary and feel comfortable with it. But the promise of more money and wealth is what motivates me, it gives me the necessary boost to start writing the code and educating myself. Once I spot the idea that may potentially be something - my eyes light. No job can do that for me.

So what's the problem, you're saying? Well, I have no good ideas to work on. Though I have a good job right now for some very nice people, where I have flexible hours, I work remotely and the project is fully under my control. In terms of possible jobs, it's better than the average one I could have. Gives enough freedom and, to be fair, doesn't feel like a job. On the other hand, I desperately need this “best” idea to work on.

I know ideas don't come from nowhere. I know you have to be looking out for them and be engaged into some real world shit to feel the pain of the problem. I know that. But that doesn't mean you need to have job. I don't want to and, what's more, I don't ever want to hire someone. I know some people are okay working for someone else, but hiring someone and paying them would probably bore me as well. I'd rather have a partner or would find some other way to have the right people on the team. I think there's a lot of hypocrisy on both sides when people are talking about “passion” and selling and buying the time of their lives. Fuck passion, I want motivation, and marrying someone ain't gonna give me one.